（ oh the fuck doesn't he? if you think he ain't copped it to dean's intense self loathing and with the added context of now seein' him in a world without that prejudice you got another thing comin'. ）
Maybe so.
Mostly I cleave to folks I can be kind to. There's a part of me that needs that.
（ he's been a caretaker the whole of his life. left school to feed his brothers. went to war to protect his country. went to korea to mind those kids who were so much younger than he ever felt. if they're bein' excoriatin', he may as well throw himself on that same grenade. ）
Some folks need it more than others. I ain't never minded an uphill climb.
You're worth loving, you know. Lord knows I sure could.
（ maybe a part of him does, a little. gene's always come easy to affection, an' what's love but a step past it? but they ain't so far removed from that day they shared memories that gene doesn't think it bears sayin' anyhow — dean needs to hear it more than he needs his privacy on the matter. ）
But you've got a real shot at something with that fella of yours, only a fool'd waste that. And maybe it'll be a fight between your head and your heart and everything you've ever heard about what it means to love a man, but you don't get to tell me it's not worth it. Love always is. It's the best of what we can leave behind when we're gone.
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Date: 2020-12-19 12:40 am (UTC)Maybe so.
Mostly I cleave to folks I can be kind to. There's a part of me that needs that.
（ he's been a caretaker the whole of his life. left school to feed his brothers. went to war to protect his country. went to korea to mind those kids who were so much younger than he ever felt. if they're bein' excoriatin', he may as well throw himself on that same grenade. ）
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Date: 2020-12-19 12:49 am (UTC)you sure as hell don't ever go with easy mode there, you just gotta pick the worst possible people for it
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Date: 2020-12-19 12:58 am (UTC)You're worth loving, you know. Lord knows I sure could.
（ maybe a part of him does, a little. gene's always come easy to affection, an' what's love but a step past it? but they ain't so far removed from that day they shared memories that gene doesn't think it bears sayin' anyhow — dean needs to hear it more than he needs his privacy on the matter. ）
But you've got a real shot at something with that fella of yours, only a fool'd waste that. And maybe it'll be a fight between your head and your heart and everything you've ever heard about what it means to love a man, but you don't get to tell me it's not worth it. Love always is. It's the best of what we can leave behind when we're gone.
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Date: 2020-12-19 01:10 am (UTC)yup and there's my limit for emotional bonding for the year, good talk, see you in 2513
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Date: 2020-12-19 01:12 am (UTC)What did I say? A toddler.
Go suck a lemon, Dean.
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Date: 2020-12-19 01:13 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-12-19 01:14 am (UTC)Don't fight with Clarke again or I will straight up knock you on your ass, my hand to God.
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Date: 2020-12-19 01:15 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-12-19 01:17 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-12-19 01:38 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-12-19 01:57 am (UTC)Secondly, I seem to have forgotten all the reasons we were ever friends to begin with.
Are you coming to New Tokyo or not?
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Date: 2020-12-19 02:04 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-12-19 02:12 am (UTC)Come find me when you do.
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Date: 2020-12-19 02:36 am (UTC)